Time is the essence of all things greatly produced. While we take time to talk about gratitude, we don't talk about our fears. In life, (especially under certain weathers), we have to find the motivation to fight, to say "fuck it, I don't deserve this", and strive for better. We need to know when to let go, and when to move on.
Continue to make your shit happen, but do it for you in your own time. Be motivated by you and by what you want--not by what you think others expect from you--be genuine with your denies. Even when you feel like you can't do anything, just do something--it will help. Keep yourself busy until you are busy.
Regardless, keep going because you never know when you will meet someone new, or go someplace amazing, or land a new job, buy a house, or have a baby. I'm serious when I say that I have seen dreams come true later in life, none of us, get it all, at the same time, and none of us can ever stop working towards the things we want from life.
You never know when the slot machine is going to give you a try a winning, but you've got to wait. The house often wins, but if you keep playing, and you keep trying, then your goals aren't too far from your reach.
Yes, waiting it seems like nothing, it feels like nothing, but time makes use of time, in it's own time. It always does, you just have to wait for it. In the meantime, embrace the small things that can change your day. Like having a good conversation with someone, or having a polite stranger wish you hello on the street.
The big things seem so vascular, but in reality it is the small things, which truly make or break or day. Perhaps it's the success at the office, but more importantly the small acts of human kindness, which mean more than anything.